December 23, 2008

First Blog Post! (The other two are tests..)

Well

this website is extraordinarily difficult to understand

but that is okay.

Do not feel guilty if you skim through my blog, because I have a long rant to make and work out that i am going to write here, because i need to write it somewhere permanent and always feel awkward writing in a diary/whatever, and my other blog is read by a bunch of home friends.

WHat is going on with my life? WELL I have hung out with my friends and had laughter and tears with my family which is nice. Tonight we are going to put the tree up. We got a foot or a foot-and-a-half of snow which has made driving/life difficult and trapped me inside the house for a little while. And the roads are still horrible days later. And we lost power while watching Real Housewives of Orange County as a family, argghhh.

I have some annoying friend drama and this is a good non-biased place I can rant. One group of friends is being very aggressive about making plans for New Years Eve, and I think it’s because they’re afraid of having what they consider a “pathetic” or uncool night or whatever. While honestly I would be fine going to a nice dinner — opening a bottle of champagne — and having a slumber party, they are being so aggressive about making super cool plans, or finding a party to go to, that i’m finding it very annoying. and I know the nice night we could have, will be ruined by these crazy expectations. oh and of course they are very possessive and jealous about me potentially not spending NYE with them.

AND so. my other group of friends. they don’t mind/understand if i don’t spend NYE with them, mostly because they understand that it is just a night that people hang out on. they have an actual party to go to, that i can go to, but i don’t want to because of that group, i like the guys but not the girls[who are theatre snobs~!], and then would have to deal with the girls (other than the two girls in the group that are my BFFLS.).

so my options are.

i could ditch needy friends, because although i don’t have a great need to go to this NYE party, needy friends are being so needy and will be so disappointed and depressing that i won’t want to deal with it. but then i will deal with their wrath.

i could spend night with needy friends and be sucked into their horrible depressingness.

i could spend night with needy firends and somehow get them to shut up and have fun!

and the last option is what i think i will do.

but i am still annoyed at them for being so needy and obsessive about finding a party etc etc etc. because i just want to be like I CAN GO TO A PARTY BUT I AM SPENDING THE NIGHT WITH YOU, as long as you won’t say all these pathetic things etc etc [because i’m not obsessive about going to a party!] which is essentially rooted in me feeling superior which is wrong but true in terms of this because they are being so pathetic and depressing.

i am mostly annoyed that people’s jealousy etc is imposing on my relaxing wonderful break!

on a better note that is less annoying and ranty! a steady diet of sugar cookies and sushi has returned my digestive system to regularity. excellent.

though i have to write down everything i eat for my cardiologist (i have genetically very high cholesterol that i am trying to lower to some degree with diet/exercise to prolong medication as long as possible!) and he is going to be liek WTF?? because while at school i do the 3 square meals thang, at home i subsist on weird amounts of weird foods that i find in my house.

i leave for israel in a couple weeks and i am having second thoughts, i feel like i would rather just stay home, and not have to make friends/hike/party/shop/etc.

OK BYE

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